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Blame me for the elevator - I know you will.
It's not me who's the operator but you're going down.
You'll be sorry when you're singing all alone.
But don't take me up. I'll just fall down once again.
Don't take me up. I'll just fall down.
Wake me when you're educated - I know you will.
You'll be self-medicated - you're spinning round.
You'll be there, but no one will even know your name.
But don't take me up. I'll just fall down once again.
Don't take me up. I'll only find my way back down.
Don't take me up. I'll only find my way back down.
Don't take me up ....
It's true I've dabbled at times with confident lines.
I was half of a man nearly half of the time.
In an innocent way, I thought it could stay with us both on the ground,
With us fooling around. Let's just stay on the ground.
Let's stay fooling around on the ground.
Don't take me up. I'll just fall down like I knew that I would.
Don't take me up. I'll only find my way back down.
Don't take me up.
I'll just fall down.....
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[26 Apr 2007|11:00pm] |
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Our conversations are circles, always one sided:
Nothing is clear.
Except we keep coming back to this meaning that I lack.
He says the choices were given and now you must live them...
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[26 Apr 2007|06:04pm] |
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"Here's the thing... I don't believe in god... I don't believe in heaven. I really wish I did and I want to with all my heart but for me it's like standing in a corner and trying not to think of a white elephant, or wishing I had a pony or something dumb like that."
- r.i.p.
i hate being impartial to death.
everyone says i'm lucky to be detached from my family in uruguay becuase in the end I dont miss them as much when they're gone.
and they're right.
but then. i regret not being abe to say so many things.
i regret that all my moments with them i was an ingnorant bitch and i never had anything important to say.
and now its too late.
and i hate it.
i just would have loved it if they could see how i turned out.
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| Dear Livejournal, I'm sorry I negect you... |
[23 Apr 2007|11:52pm] |
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i'm ready to smash my head against my headrest.
due to massive impaitence.
i really need to try to get my hair finished tomorrow.
(they say that's not all to it either)
finish what?
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[30 Mar 2007|12:07pm] |
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i've been overly inspired to paint lately.
i woke up at 8:30 and I just stopped painting.
i look like such a hobo, covered in paint.
my black mouse is pregnent.
exciting i know.
even more exciting.
sushi for lunch.
im waiting for my dad to get home so i can eat.
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[29 Mar 2007|08:45pm] |
Five times out of a hundred.
Tell me what my odds are, my heart isn't working.
Five times out of a hundred.
Tell me what my chance is, romance is under rated.
Stare on.
Don't let a glance be too short.
Don't stop.
Glances are a playground.
Stay around the sound of laughing boys.
Walk on around the table making noise.
Stare on! Oh no?
I wanna turn the bathtub on
and watch this house drown from the lawn.
I wanna turn this energy on.
<3
(fuck me in the ass and call my jimmy. i did it again :O )
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[26 Feb 2007|09:07am] |
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When you stay at a dorm that's not yours for too long, you feel like you're in some sort of cheap hotel.
It's an odd weird thing, I suppose. Watching X-Files in a double bed room, but there's no one there.
It reminds me of when I went to Disney World. These things happen.
I'm kinda pissed we have a two hour delay, 'cause this is just another day I'm missing. But then again school doesn't matter anymore since I got my Goucher acceptance letter. And now that I have my lip done, I'm all set this year. Just gotta coast on through.
Go team!
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[19 Feb 2007|09:23pm] |
getting into SUNY Maritime was nice.
100% graduates with jobs.
<3
at least i have a future in marine biology available.
now lets wait for the others.
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| been drinkin' since 8 and finished at 8 |
[15 Jan 2007|02:32pm] |
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<3
Hay para ya vivir acunto a ti.
Me enamore alla de ti.
Ya sin tus besos yo no puedo
vivir en el acordar.
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| I am not a great person, on the other hand. |
[04 Jan 2007|03:21am] |
when all hope is lost.
those random things occur.
and damn.
nothing makes sense.
i hate it when boys act like they dont listin to a single damn thing you say.
and then suddenly. when you dont expect it, they remind you, word for word, of something you said to them.
godammit.
and i do believe it's true that there are roads left in both of our shoes.
and if the silence takes you then i hope it takes me too.
so brown eyes i hold you near, cause youre the only song i want to hear.
a melody softly soaring through my atmosphere...
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[29 Dec 2006|05:36pm] |
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Everyone dies.
I guess it's just better to keep the good memories inside.
We all have to return to the ashes from which we came.
If not, where will the ashes for our children come from?
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[24 Dec 2006|09:43pm] |
i love being foreign and getting christmas gifts on christmas eve.
camera <3
silent hill, the movie <3
9th gate avec johnny depp <3 <3
enders game & speaker for the dead <3
t'was a good gift bounty. plus i was in serious need of a camera for all those priceless moments when Dave Burke comes over and says nonsensical things like, "no more christ in my cocoa crispies" and such.
rawr.
not to mention the fun dance parties and such at the house of rock and roll.
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| dont you forget, you're just like everybody else. |
[19 Dec 2006|11:58pm] |
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I kinda love knowing that people think the same thing as me.
I kinda love being reminded that everyone is around to use each other.
Being nice can get you hugs, but stepping on people builds homes.
You can't make an omelet without cracking some eggs. It's a lesson more people should learn.
Nitzche. Where have you been all my life?
Deus Ex...where did you go all this time?
There's irony in knowing that all along you had been standing no more than 10 feet away, and I must have seen you at least a billion times since I fell asleep looking at you. I love the sheer pleasantry of knowing that the world spins in circles, like the planets orbit the sun, and the sun orbits the unvierse, and ultimately we are all going in circles, because that's just the way the tides turn, like how the tides, they turn becuase the moon orbits the Earth. It all makes me very happy and numb on the inside.
All this Deja Vu I've been having, is it because I stumble around drunk, or is it becuase the world falls back onto itself ever gazillion years and starts all over again, and somehow, all the memories of the times we've lived the same life stay a little longer in the minds, because secretly it's in our genes, it's in our brains, in our souls.
We are all made from the same stuff. We are all made from the stars.
I wonder then, what made the stars?
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[18 Dec 2006|03:00pm] |
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its so hard for you always, and the place where i want to be is inside you.
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[16 Dec 2006|05:26pm] |
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Nothing like hanging out with the guys for old times sake.
<3
"I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you. But just being around you offers me another form of relief."
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[14 Dec 2006|11:09pm] |
"The origin of the universe (around the Big Bang time) stars were composed of Hydrogen. This means no heavy metals, and this means no Earth type planets, animals, humans...you. These original stars aged quickly and their cores converted the hydrogen to helium. These massive stars quickly burned and went supernova sending their insides out to space and the closes stars (remember, this was shortly after the Big Bang). Then, new stars formed out of the exploded material of these 1st generation stars and they too burned quickly. But they developed some of the higher elements in their core. Since these massive stars were not stable, they went supernova spewing their insides (heavy metals this time) out to space. Our sun is "a 3rd generation" star! So, to start, you are made up of "star stuff".
Our sun, however, is very stable and it will be billions of years before the hydrogen core is gone and the sun starts converting helium to heavy metals. Earth (and you) will be enveloped into the suns hot edge as the sun expands. They say the sun will go nova, so you will be part of the "star stuff" sent out into space maybe to begin another sun and Earth type planet.
By the way, there is no limit to how many generations a sun may be. But remember it is the heavy metals that cause Earth type planets.
So isn't it a pleasant thought to think you may be the start of another sun and planet?"
"I want to tell you something Mark, something you do not yet know, but we K-Paxians have been around long enough to have discovered. The universe will expand, and it will collapse back on itself, then will expand again. It will repeat this process forever. What you don't know is that when the universe expands again, everything will be as it is now. Whatever mistakes you make this time around, you will live through on your next pass. Every mistake you make, you will live through again, and again, forever. So my advice to you is to get it right this time around. Because this time is all you have."
"For someone who was never meant for this world, I must confess I'm suddenly having a hard time leaving it. Of course, they say every atom in our bodies was once part of a star. Maybe I'm not leaving... maybe I'm going home."
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[14 Dec 2006|08:54pm] |
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I think I forgot what it felt like to be drowning in my emotions.
Something about this chunk of song that makes me remember it.
And I do believe it's true, that there are roads left in both of our shoes,
But if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too.
So brown eyes I hold you near, 'cause you're the only song I want to hear.
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere....
People are too weird and complicated.
Tsk, I worry about what I've fallen for and who I'm aching for.
I worry about my dissonance.
I miss Andrew. What a weird thought.
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[12 Dec 2006|01:35am] |
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totally apathetic mood.
i need a break.
i cant say i felt this apathetic in a long time.
i like how you can point out the key moments in your life where everything could be different if you had followed through with an act.
Life is weird.
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[10 Dec 2006|10:34pm] |
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I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong.
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy.
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen.
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in.
I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes.
’Cause when you showed me myself I became someone else-
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need.
I picture you fast asleep, a nightmare comes. You can’t keep awake.
’Cause if I find. If I find my own way, how much will I find?
If I find. If I find my own way how much will I find, you?
I don’t know anymore what it’s for. I’m not even sure.
If there is anyone who is in the sun,
Will you help me to understand?
’Cause I been caught in between all you wish for and all you need.
Maybe you’re not even sure what it’s for any more than me.
oops.
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